Monday, July 14, 2008

The View From the Toilet

This pregnancy has thrown a lot of "morning" sickness my way. I was fairly nauseous during the first trimester of Simon's pregnancy as well, so I am not surprised, but it still is rough. My general feeling of yuckiness has actually gotten better - from an all-day thing to usually just 2 pm on. But it still throws me for a loop. I hate that I constantly feel like I have a big dead weight in my stomach. I hate that my house is a mess, prepared meals are a distant memory, and the afternoons find me prone on the couch while the kids play around me. I hate that if Simon pushes too hard on my stomach or Clare elbows me in just the wrong way, I will have to make a mad dash to the bathroom. (Although I admit it is cute that Clare now will spontaneously start play-coughing, run to the bathroom, make some fake gagging noises over the toilet, then come back out to me. With a big grin on her face, she will wipe her mouth with her hand and say with a big sigh, "all better." You little stinker...)

At the same time, though, I cannot help but marvel over this new little life, gagging and all. For those who don't know me well, becoming pregnant is not an easy thing for me. To put it briefly, Jamie, Clare, and Simon were all extremely well-planned. Baby Bonita is a shocker. I never thought I would just get pregnant. In fact, at my six-week postpartum OB visit after Simon was born, my OB brought up birth control. I don't believe in artificial birth control, and we practice Natural Family Planning. Plus, as I cheerfully reminded my doctor, avoiding pregnancy was never our problem. My OB knows my views on this, but she still equally cheerfully reminded me that just because I needed some help becoming pregnant in the past and just because I was nursing did not mean I could not become pregnant. Well, I am thrilled to say she was right!

So while I am hovering over the toilet, I remind myself that all of life is a phase. This too will pass. Hopefully in the next week or so (now that I am almost in my second trimester). Then I will have other equally delightful pregnancy woes to moan about!

9 comments:

Michelle said...

feel better soon sweetie :)

Aunt Joan said...

Oh, the wonderful side of pregnancy! I completely understand what you are going through, and send my sympathy! However, it will pass, and life will be better than ever. I am so excited for all of you! Love ya, Aunt Joan

Julie said...

I hope you feel better soon. I had it with all 3 of mine.

Heather said...

Hope it doesn't last too long. I only got sick for 2 weeks with my last pregnancy, and not at all with my boys. Those two weeks were hellish though. I will never forget. It's so cool that this was unplanned. It was meant to be :)

Every minute counts.... said...

I hope that you feel better soon. I always loved being pregnant, well, when the morning sickness passed anyway. Chris would always laugh at me and say I did everything backwards...most women are moody when they are pregnant, not me, I was totally happy and in love with the whole thought of it!

Noel

k's mama said...

ugggg- I hate that feeling!!!!!!! I had it all 9 months with Keira. Its awful awful awful!!!!!!!
ps- I have some leftover Zofran if you need it! :o)

Ava's Grandma Kim said...

You poor thing! I wasn't really sick when I was pregnant, just some nausea once in awhile. I admire anyone who can get through it with her smile intact!

I read recently that moms who experience severe "morning" sickness have a greater chance that the baby is a girl. Somebody somewhere did a study, I guess, but who knows? Maybe we have a Bonita after all!

Take care,

Kim

Katie said...

You poor thing, hope you feel better really soon!
If it means anything i completely understand right now, blughh I also have Jaiden and Lachie doing cough splutter run to the bathroom impersonations, now i just need them to stop saying "mummy threwed up" for at least another 5 weeks until we tell the family or they are going to either guess or think i am bullimic!

alexish5 said...

I hope you feel better soon. I still remember the day when I woke up and didn't feel sick anymore...it was the best feeling! You are almost there!